Current Feeling: Poetic <3

I'll Be Fine

See here I go getting lost in my reincarnated thoughts of what we should’ve been,

Lost in the idea that you haven’t changed,

I’m lost in what we could’ve been instead of what we are present,

Overthinking and romanticizing the scraps you give,

here I go again rethinking the events that led up to this exact moment.

But it'll be fine.

I'll receive a scrap... I mean signal from you and they'll disperse,

All my overthinking will come to a halt until the next scrap... I mean signal isn't enough,

I guess I'll be fine until then,

Fine with what little you give,

Sending me insane because deep down I know I deserve more,

Because deep down below the fear of your absence I know I want more,

But I'll be fine... For now.

Was it Meant?

They said if it’s meant it’ll come back around,

You came back,

But was it meant to be so excruciating?

Was it meant to make me feel like I was breaking into a million pieces all over again?

What did they mean by meant?

Meant to hurt worse than it did the first time and maybe this time reintroduce me the same lesson?

I welcomed you with open arms even though I shouldn’t have,

Found myself hoping and praying that this time it hurt just a little less.

My hopes and prayers meant nothing.

My romanticized version of us was all but a dream that meant nothing.

Now here I am again left with these same damn hopes.

Praying that you don’t do what you’ve done in the past.

Comfortable

You urged me to get comfortable,

Begged me to lower my guards,

So I got comfortable,

Got used to feeling like you’d always be there,

Through my good and bad,

No vows intended,

Soaring with my expectations,

Unknowingly started a routine,

You became the last person I talked to at night,

most mornings the first,

I was comfortable

Caring about the small things,

Until they stopped,

Came to a screeching halt,

Things became less interesting,

The beginning stage came to an end,

True colors were broadcasted,

Communication became that of the past,

The frustration of this contentment with how things started to settle in,

Checking my notifications to just maybe see your name flash,

But you’re busy right?

Too Busy preparing others for the same treatment,

Too busy To be bothered with my comfortable ass

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